Anticipating the Worst
- May 20, 2019
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Jacob’s May 2019 Blog "Friday is my favorite day, because I know how much I want to go to church on Sunday. It means I have another day of good anticipation. I live so much in my mind that it is more fun for me to anticipate than to actually do. Can you imagine not being able to do what your brain wants to do? I mean well, but have trouble behaving the way I want. It is more fun for me to dream than to do. I guess it’s because my body stores up so much fear inside that I cannot enjoy the experience of doing. I know it sounds weird, but I am captive to my rebellious body. Even the anticipation and fear of possibly hurting others makes my body act up. I start hitting myself and the fear level cycles upwards. I want so badly to control my fear but it is in control of me.
What can I do to control this anxiety? I know all the scripture verses, breathing, and know it is irrational but it still has control of my body. You may not believe me or think I am losing my mind, but it is like I am living with a rebellious person who wants to destroy me. My body has its own will and desires. Did I mention that I cannot speak? Therefore everyone believes that I am what my body does. Nothing could be further from the truth. I am actually a tender, sensitive soul trapped in a violent, aggressive horrible body that I cannot control. I long for you to know the real me inside. Have you tried?"
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This post really hits deep, Jacob. The way you describe being trapped in anticipation while your body rebels with fear and self-harm sounds incredibly tough and isolating. It’s heartbreaking that people judge the outside actions without seeing the tender soul inside. Thank you for sharing so honestly—it helps others feel less alone.
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